mad decision

Some love&hate collide situation here.


I don't know what am I thinking when I finally agreed to try my beginners luck as an applicant in the world that men mostly dominates.


I must've been psyched with the idea of the job itself. I mean, it's not so me. No, No, lemme' rephrase that. IT'S NOT ME!!! (I wanna dress-up, put make-up, do photoshoots, travel, be a boss and the like) and never even in my wildest dreams that I think I'll become one (in Gods will) sooner than later. CLUE: men in blue.


What happened in the last five years was out of my planner. Where I had been was a full surprised. well, partly. before going to college,I remember saying, " I don't like nursing and never well I take up nursing". ending? I have RN on my last name now. And then there's moment, while pondering on some things, I don't want to be one with men in blue. ending? It's the first job I applied for.


my point is, things that I've given less attention before has became & become now my greatest priority.road map. some twist of fate? I guesso.


After months of fighting and resisting the urge to quit, I know deep in my heart that somehow I found passion with the profession I'm going to be in.


I can not stop thinking with the bumpy rides I'm going to take to get there, but as long as I can ignore the midnight thoughts, I'll continue to walk with hope 'til i reach my destination.


There will be detours, I know. But I also know myself as a pusher on anything I start doing. I'm writing this because I am pressure more than words.


Like tomorrow, applicants and that includes me will be having our  HT&wT. Just the thought of going there makes me wanna pee. I can not ignore the pressure and the nervousness I'm feeling just like that, it hits my nervous system bigtime.


It announced as a surprised. And it only takes a conditioned mind to accept it wholeheartedly. I am raving about the whole process not just the HT&WT per se. I am all nerves.


I am waiting for the call last month, I received it just today when my physical, mental, emotional, spiritual and all it takes to be human preparedness level was ocean deep. OHGAAA


Glad Mom will accompany me tomorrow. but still.


Goodvibes, bee hives.


I shall sleep na. Goodnight

'til then boy,

i wouldn't miss this for the world and who would? MEH. who has the courage? lemme' see your handszap!

everybody, and I mean the whole wide world go gaga waiting for this movie's ending -yes, i know it was already ended in the book but, in the movie? it's a different story. to see it moving, vividly with your own eyes is something - and now, its there, fin'lly on the big screen, world wide. it's like a fulfillment, a dream come true. huzzah.

THE boy...

i watched with my cousin who is a self-confessed HP obsessed 

keeps the tension at bay

i got goose-bumps. i held my breath. and, my heart beat stopped. whew! nobody does it like christopher columbus.


nice film, very very very. sayonora potter.

eyecandy

movies lineup:

...messy hair,no make-up on, in pajamas: there are no other ways to spend the rainy days than lazing in divan and watch amazing films.☺ -jaky

The legend of the Guardians,

...On his way to finding a legend...he will become one.

Happy Feet,

...WARNING: May Cause Toe-Tapping.

How do you know,

...After being cut from the USA softball team and feeling a bit past her prime, Lisa finds herself evaluating her life and in the middle of a love triangle, as a corporate guy in crisis competes with her current, baseball-playing beau.

spread,

...It's a business doing pleasure.

ballet shoes,

...dreams do come true.

easy A,

...Let's not and say we did.

ramona and beezus,

...A Little Sister Goes A Long Way.

santa claus 3,

...His time at the North Pole is about to go South.

scott pilgrim vs. the world,

...An epic of epic epicness. Get the hot girl. Defeat her evil exes. Hit love where it hurts.

sharpey's fabulous adventure,

...Sharpay Evans travels to New York where she is pursuing a Broadway career but it's her dog who lands an acting gig first. watch-out for the pink/green burberry luggage, you will just spell w o w.

something borrowed,

...It's a thin line between love and friendship.

sweet home alabama,

...Sometimes What You're Looking For Is Right Where You Left It.

under the tuscan sun,

...Life offers you a thousand chances ... all you have to do is take one.

you again,

...What doesn't kill you... is going to marry your brother.

arthur,

...Meet the world's only lovable billionaire. wait 'til you meet the billionaire boys club (hihi)

no strings attached,

...Friendship has its benefits