I love them piggies

“Friends can be new, friends can be old. But all of them are as precious as gold”.

Last hurrah with my piglets for this year. Who would've have thought a friendship like this will happen? I just known them for 5 months but its like I've known them more half of melife.

We've been through the topsy-turvey adventure you wouldn't wanna know... Shshshshshsssshhh

They have been part of my "life of a travel" and so many others of my so-called maturing life. Lol

I present to you, 2009

It was a year to remember and a year to forget. I just realized it yesterday that it will be 4 years since I felt being a real "teenager". It's a year were many life transitions occured to me. Lot of things came true that I dreamed of back in highschool.

Crazy friends, literally every night (& uhm, some days) that we drink here and there. They're the company I got beyond my expectation. I miss them so much. If ever time machine was real, those are some of the days I will surely go back and relive the moments over and over. It sounded much overrated for you but it's really how happy I am those times. euphoria. Nothing compares.

Partying till dawn, A DISCOnnection notice (monthly) from our land lady. Not because we don't have money to pay for it. It's just that we're too happy to care over some less happy things. Haha

My heart beats. My heart got broken that until now I'm picking up the pieces and fixing it with my bare hands, I got wounded. I still wanna go back to that year where almost felt like a fairytale.

I'm all ghetto today. I passed down some tears in the middle of typing this. haha. Crazy. I don't know if I have to blame the chcolates. Or the hormones. Or the fatness. DUH

Xo,

Boys, you shine.

How awesome this boys are? Pure awesomeness. They never fail to mesmerized me in every new single they released.

I grew up listening to their songs, I grew up kissing our TV screen when they're on the MTV. Those days, where pop rules. Dirty pop. Loljk

Their songs always hit home. I'm forever a fan. A supporter. No matter how many times they've been off and on cam.

I love them boysz to bits. I had the privileged to watched them perform live last 2010. Which is btw, my 16-yr old dream. Too bad, I didn't have the means to watch them again just this year when they got back here in the Philippines to perform with the other band, in which the name I can not remember.

But as I always say, I'll nvr get tired watching them perform live, over again. All over again. Never, ever. They made my childhood more memorable. so, next time. I'll make sure, boysz.

Much love. BSB rules. \m/

Unwrapping them boys early Christmas present. :)

November, can't get any better

Okay, there's a lil' sarcasm in the title. But wait, counting the exams, quizzes, preceps and other school works our professors promised to give us justify the title. DUHWTVR

So there,  I'm counting the days 'til the next vacation begins, which is the Christmas break, btw. Just ended-up the sembreak with a bang but dang, the hangover still hunting me. I got a bit shocked on the first day of second sem 'cos srzly the past two weeks was one hella fun.

I.just.think.abt.fun.and.lived.in.dreamland and reality is just cruel, I present to you my evidences below:

October 25: Lab. Conference
November 06: Small group discussion
november 12: Neuroanatomy module 4 long exam
november 13: Physiology quiz
             preceptorial
november 15: Physiology module 7 LE
november 16: anatomy quiz
november 19: IC LE
november 20: histology LE
november 21: histology lab LE
             biochemistry LE

(and the list goes on)

life.

An open letter to my blood sucker

Edward, dearest

[google images]

My love. As you have an idea how hectic my schedule is as you have noticed to Carlisle's. Please bear in mind that my love and support can not be measure by being around with you at the premiere night. I may not be there physically to give you cheers, but here me from afar, there I am whispering the echoes of my heart. WTHITLKNGABT?#*) LOL

Love,
Theonedreamingabtyouifitsnotobviou ;)

bear hug

With all this sssshhhhhhhh*t coming right up, I srzly needed one right about now. I tell you, MedSchool is no joke, no joke.

Strong foundation of faith, perseverance, motivation, inspiration and what not are much needed to maintain the so-called "sanity". GAA. am goin' bonkers. WUUTTTYALOOKINAT Y'ALL? :P

lost

I can't described in words or by any means about what I felt inside of me right about now. I kind of lost in my own lil' world.

Sometimes, to think made it more worst than not to think about it at all and just act with my impulse.

I needed my energy-boosters: shopping, vanity, make-up, and a glamorous pink lipstick! gimme gimme

sisters from another misters

I'm so psyched thinking that I will get another chance to spend quality time with two of my few best gal pals.

We've met in college, we have been friends together since. We see everyday at school (even after school, "bottle" moments.. ugetit? lol), we share chikka's, countless lols, and what not. 

fast forward, separation anxiety comes into play when we graduated. We walked on different paths, one leave the country for good, we rarely saw each other since then. 

Everytime we got a rare chance to be together, we assure its going to be worth it, full of fun and stories that has been itching to be told. 

Coming back to the present. Good ol' friends lightens up the mood when things overshadow with doom (and in my case, its MedSchool). It always calms me just thinking that I have them behind me. Ready to catch me when I fall, Assist me when I get weak, listens to me when I needed someone to listen to me ranting and what others a good pal will do. 

my kind of OCPD

It's my exam tomorrow. And guess wutt I'm doing. 

The mess in my room are gettin' on my nerves and I don't have the heart to just ignore it :P

Grandpa

I must let it out with my system or else I'll go crazy. Received a text from dad that my Lolo will be confine in the hospital tonight. Initial reaction of a lolo's girl like me is to cry (am actually crying right about now). What will you expect, ghetto feeling flowing all over me...

I love my lolo so much, and I can't afford to loose him right now. Argh,,, I can't think of words, PLEASE PRAY FOR MY LOLO :')

PPT

This is whatever. lol

I'm just psyched every time I do ppt presentation. It's just my third time to do it all my life. believe me. I graduated college blessed without doing any... amnatgoodatity'know.

(photo source: google)

unclear.

WARNING: This is random!


How I miss my good ol' friend.The "friend" where I can let my emotions out without the fear to be criticize... simply, cos' it can't talk like that. LOLJK. nuff with the non-sense intro.

I miss blogging, it's something that I took for granted in EONS. There's so much I should've blog about, from the day I started working on my first ever work experienced up to the life-wrecking decision that I made. TO SUM IT UP, there are so many things that I wanna breath-out my system but chose to hold-it for this long 'cos I can't find words how to say it. how to express it. maybe 'cos of exhaustion almost from everything.

Pictures stored in my internal HD, and words stuck in my head. when can I let it all out? perfectly? I don't know. Anxiety goes up every sunshine, ( I am a freshman, medStudent. just so you know where I'm getting all my anxiety, stress, depression and the like. it's no joke.... no joke) , feeling of hopelessness feeds me brekky, frustrations, pressures adds up to the bitterness of my morning. 


I'm quite proud of myself that I can able to control my bed epiphanies at this point in time, but then I realized that the "just woke-up" bed epiphanies is much worst that that. It's more of reality, Facing reality... whatever....


There's sooooo much things that I need to learn. and read! All but something new to me. No dissensitation at all, no gradual process. It's an "absorb it" or "not at all" thing that should happened in a snap. It's difficult, 'cos it doesn't ring a bell at all. 


I'm losing control of whats happening in my life right now, even writing on my planner has been a major task. I know they'll say that best thing happens unplanned. but this kind of "life" i chose should always be on plan or else.... it's like the domino effect, all else will fall and wrecked.

I never learned time management. That's what I'm paying for it right about now. It's hard if you're not sanay at all. but I just have too. It's part of the progress, my progress, for my better tomorrow.

I know God's with me, family and friends who's praying for me. My faith bent a bit forward at times when I lose it, this whole thing is driving me wildly insane. I'm trying to keep my life on track and hope that when I woke-up all my craziness, dilemmas and what not will fade with my dreams.

MedSchool is suicide. believe me. but it'll be worth it. I know. Someday, I'll read about this post with a sweet smile on my face. I'm excited for that day to come. just like when I rant about my upcoming NLE here two years ago, I'm already a nurse. :)

sweetlife. hugs!
okay, back to reality.

Exactly what I need

[late post]

It's been famous around the world for a decade, or even centuries, that retail therapy is a girl's best friend. yes, not just diamonds and stuffs. It's also known to cause bipolar (warning!!! ting ting ting), you'll ask me why? here, when a girl shop, it can make her insta-happy, but at the end, insta-sad when she opened her wallet and only to find a five centavo. LOLJK

I did some shopping today to, atleast leveled down the anxiety im feeling right about now...

I feel happy to shop with my baby

that saying, when you cant't sleep for four days, buy it. i can't  sleep for two weeks!

love at first sight.

acid wash.

for me, it's not that yummy.

new fave: graham and cheese shake

peg!

we ate here...

i did some BLACKing today too..

I've been to lazy to update my blog recently.

what could be more happier

before, I was happy and contended....

and then this came along....

Nothing can be more worth the wait than fulfilling a dream... It takes days, months, years or even ones whole life to fill it, but whats important is the rare happiness it'll bring in the end. the contentment that some ppl are deprived to feel.

ALot of ppl asked me, " do you really wanna pursue medicine?", "another years of studying, are you sure about that?". Just pondered it now, I will not waste another 4 to 5 years of my life to something I am not sure about. It's an old dream of mine, when I was kid, I was fascinated ertime I see doctors wearing those white gowns with stet as their necklace. I even imitated them alot of times... forgotten that dream for quite a long time, I thought that I can be contended with me being a nurse (not that I'm belittling the profession, Its just that nursing profession is not for me, I can't imagined myself working in the hospital, taking doctor's orders. I have high respect to nurses, it's not just my game), But my old dream has come along way to knocked on my doors and me, don't have the heart to shooo it away. so here I am, an incoming freshman med student this coming June. 

I may have chose the rough road now, but its gonna be all worth it. worth it. This is my dream, an old dream. All we want in this mortal land as mortal ppl is to be happy, fulfilling ones dream is finding way.. or making way..at least to happiness.  

Fulfilling an old dream is my game. wish me luck.

my perfect fan

[late post]

When I was a kid, my bruised and cuts were healed by my momma's kiss and touch. 

Nothing can beat a mommas love. 

I mayb hate you for some reason I'll not tell, but I love you beyond it all. I'm one of the few to be given such a supermom like you...

Momma, continue to be strong 'cos in you I get my strength. Again, and I'll always say and will never get tired of saying... Love you mom. You da woman. mwuaggz 

kids get all the fun

This song is just a perfect soundtrack alongside reminiscing teh younger days, the good ol' days. For the past four days I've been torturing myself missing those days.

I'm close to shedding my tears the first time I heard this..well, If I'm not just in the OFC and no ones watching me, I would literally go with the emotion of the song and cry. Much overrated  as it sounded, but it is just so emotional, the wordings of the song really hit home.

boom! boom!

call me maybe
by: Carla Rae Jepsen

newest earcandy. Literally playing all day on my iPhone and BanBan (MBP). It didn't fail to make me groove, the song just got the so-called charisma. LOVE.

Holy week

[late post]

Last week, I'm thinking of buying a rosary. I had one since my third year highschool that I put on my wallet but went invisible after 4 years. My sister gave me one again after the one went missing.

My point, I feel more the spirit of the rosary when it was given to me instead of me buying it. So, I'm having second thought on buying one that i just wanna ask someone to give me one and have it blessed. HAA!

Fast forward, we had mass at the office before the most holy days begins. On my side was a not-so-old man. I was amazed when I heard him respond to everything the preacher has been said and sing with heart and without hesitation. He smiles every time we look on his direction (I'm with two office mates). He seems to be a nice man.

At the end of the mass, this what most amazed me, he approached me, and handed me a rosary that was blessed.
Isn't it awesome that someone stranger approached you and handed you something important, mind you I was waiting that he'll ask for some money in return just like the others, I feel so grateful and blessed as if it the answer for my prayer. To have a rosary that was given and NOT bought. he was a lay minister (my mental confusing state of mind was secretly answered).

It's not a fancy rosary. It's just a simple one but I'm guarding it with my life. Its the thought that really counts. I considered it my lucky charm. Of course, alongside with hardwork and determination. Thought I'd share .

Btw, here's the pic.

What?

Interior designing top my list as to what I wanna be. I just don't have the heart to pursue it now. Maybe cos I want to pursue it when I'm already earning my own money. to be a doctor top the second, I have full packed strength to pursue it now. I'm just confused. Whatever . lol

NKOTBSB

are you excited? I AM!!!

I wouldn't mind watching you guys perform live over and over and over and over and over!!!!

Lame

"I love my mom no matter what we go through, no matter how much we argue, because I know, at the end, she’ll always be there".

Don't get me wrong, but I just find this saying a pathetic one. I mean, you only love your mother because she'll always be there for you? Like, "I love you, cos I need you" kind of thing? How about the "I need you, cos I love you" Thing? It's much better right.

Methink, our love for our mother(&father) should be unconditionally and yes, no reasons at all. We love them 'cos we love them!!! That's it!!!

head(er)s up!

I know, I know, its been EONS since I changed my blog header into something, well.....plain&boring. It takes alot of dreaming, imagining, & fantasizing before you can comup into something very you. So, after all the nightmares and rabbithole momemts, I am happy to make you all see what I've been messed-up the past few hours. TADA! 

Am so psyched with my not-so-boring-newly-made-by-me header. so colorful, just some of the things that makes me a happy, happy girl. Visually obvious, I'm a hopeless romantic, and at this age of 20-somethingsomething, I still believe in fairytales and happy endings.

srzly, thissz serious

I need to work on my blog header at the soonest possible time. This is a very nonsense entry, I tell you. see? CIAO!