what could be more happier

before, I was happy and contended....

and then this came along....

Nothing can be more worth the wait than fulfilling a dream... It takes days, months, years or even ones whole life to fill it, but whats important is the rare happiness it'll bring in the end. the contentment that some ppl are deprived to feel.

ALot of ppl asked me, " do you really wanna pursue medicine?", "another years of studying, are you sure about that?". Just pondered it now, I will not waste another 4 to 5 years of my life to something I am not sure about. It's an old dream of mine, when I was kid, I was fascinated ertime I see doctors wearing those white gowns with stet as their necklace. I even imitated them alot of times... forgotten that dream for quite a long time, I thought that I can be contended with me being a nurse (not that I'm belittling the profession, Its just that nursing profession is not for me, I can't imagined myself working in the hospital, taking doctor's orders. I have high respect to nurses, it's not just my game), But my old dream has come along way to knocked on my doors and me, don't have the heart to shooo it away. so here I am, an incoming freshman med student this coming June. 

I may have chose the rough road now, but its gonna be all worth it. worth it. This is my dream, an old dream. All we want in this mortal land as mortal ppl is to be happy, fulfilling ones dream is finding way.. or making way..at least to happiness.  

Fulfilling an old dream is my game. wish me luck.

my perfect fan

[late post]

When I was a kid, my bruised and cuts were healed by my momma's kiss and touch. 

Nothing can beat a mommas love. 

I mayb hate you for some reason I'll not tell, but I love you beyond it all. I'm one of the few to be given such a supermom like you...

Momma, continue to be strong 'cos in you I get my strength. Again, and I'll always say and will never get tired of saying... Love you mom. You da woman. mwuaggz 

kids get all the fun

This song is just a perfect soundtrack alongside reminiscing teh younger days, the good ol' days. For the past four days I've been torturing myself missing those days.

I'm close to shedding my tears the first time I heard this..well, If I'm not just in the OFC and no ones watching me, I would literally go with the emotion of the song and cry. Much overrated  as it sounded, but it is just so emotional, the wordings of the song really hit home.

boom! boom!

call me maybe
by: Carla Rae Jepsen

newest earcandy. Literally playing all day on my iPhone and BanBan (MBP). It didn't fail to make me groove, the song just got the so-called charisma. LOVE.

Holy week

[late post]

Last week, I'm thinking of buying a rosary. I had one since my third year highschool that I put on my wallet but went invisible after 4 years. My sister gave me one again after the one went missing.

My point, I feel more the spirit of the rosary when it was given to me instead of me buying it. So, I'm having second thought on buying one that i just wanna ask someone to give me one and have it blessed. HAA!

Fast forward, we had mass at the office before the most holy days begins. On my side was a not-so-old man. I was amazed when I heard him respond to everything the preacher has been said and sing with heart and without hesitation. He smiles every time we look on his direction (I'm with two office mates). He seems to be a nice man.

At the end of the mass, this what most amazed me, he approached me, and handed me a rosary that was blessed.
Isn't it awesome that someone stranger approached you and handed you something important, mind you I was waiting that he'll ask for some money in return just like the others, I feel so grateful and blessed as if it the answer for my prayer. To have a rosary that was given and NOT bought. he was a lay minister (my mental confusing state of mind was secretly answered).

It's not a fancy rosary. It's just a simple one but I'm guarding it with my life. Its the thought that really counts. I considered it my lucky charm. Of course, alongside with hardwork and determination. Thought I'd share .

Btw, here's the pic.

What?

Interior designing top my list as to what I wanna be. I just don't have the heart to pursue it now. Maybe cos I want to pursue it when I'm already earning my own money. to be a doctor top the second, I have full packed strength to pursue it now. I'm just confused. Whatever . lol

NKOTBSB

are you excited? I AM!!!

I wouldn't mind watching you guys perform live over and over and over and over and over!!!!

Lame

"I love my mom no matter what we go through, no matter how much we argue, because I know, at the end, she’ll always be there".

Don't get me wrong, but I just find this saying a pathetic one. I mean, you only love your mother because she'll always be there for you? Like, "I love you, cos I need you" kind of thing? How about the "I need you, cos I love you" Thing? It's much better right.

Methink, our love for our mother(&father) should be unconditionally and yes, no reasons at all. We love them 'cos we love them!!! That's it!!!

head(er)s up!

I know, I know, its been EONS since I changed my blog header into something, well.....plain&boring. It takes alot of dreaming, imagining, & fantasizing before you can comup into something very you. So, after all the nightmares and rabbithole momemts, I am happy to make you all see what I've been messed-up the past few hours. TADA! 

Am so psyched with my not-so-boring-newly-made-by-me header. so colorful, just some of the things that makes me a happy, happy girl. Visually obvious, I'm a hopeless romantic, and at this age of 20-somethingsomething, I still believe in fairytales and happy endings.

srzly, thissz serious

I need to work on my blog header at the soonest possible time. This is a very nonsense entry, I tell you. see? CIAO!

No grey areas

My most recent "ilovemyself" session. It's been awhile since I have taken my self portrait. I've been busybusy with work that sleep is the only thing I care about when I hit home.

And fin'lly, After I gained all the extra energy left in my body, guess what happenned next.

I'm just learning how to put an eyeliner. So spare me from your judgement/s from my uneven eyeliner drawing. HAA!

my own bucket list

*sighed

I'm tired of wishlist but as of now, its all that I can do.

This is what recently added on my endless wishlist (it just got me depressed everytime I look at it) LOL.

The Herchel supply Co.

Can i just sing my frustration out like La La La

and I just can't LEGO

I remember that tiny colored bricks that my mom gave me as a graduation gift from way back (srzly, don't ask me WHEN was that, HAA!). I don't have it a long time ago so it surprised me how pricey it is now. From my time, it only cost 500+. presently, it cost 4 to 5 digits. imagine? If only I knew how to take good care of things like those, I would be guiltless now. GAA

As I scan the newspaper for some brain-feeding time, I came across this one page from inquirer that features moleskine LEGO notebook limited edition ( I had moleskine for my 2012 planner). I just fall inlove quickly just as how human falls in love too quickly. Lol

My LEGO obsession still haunts me. watches/notebook/anything lego. I just can't take my eyes of them. as of now, I'm still looking for that Lego watch I saw two years ago at rustan's kids section. When I was about to buy it, it was already sold out. That's why I'm clinging to this. But, How I wish this precious wouldn't turn like the previous one. WISHLIST.

crazy crazy lil' thing

This is pure rambling. Don't tell me I didn't warned y'll.

I lost count the number of times I wish to fin'lly meet the 'man of my dreams'. Wish there, Wish here, until came to a point that I've been tired of all the pointless wishing that I told myself to wake-up from a dream I've been living for so long and face reality that fairytales, sometimes, takes a lot of PATIENCE and TIME to come true and not just ' two unattached people met in the forest' and then BOOM! voila scenario like what brothers' Grimm once told.

Iem' a 'no-boyfriend-since-birth' lady (err. should I count him in? maybe, NO). Okay, I've been once in a relationship but I don't think I shoud include it ( I will not tell you the reason why), we've been together for a year but it's just not enough to count him in. HAHA. no bitterness. just to be clear. pure statement only :P

For the past years (yes, years), I never failed to follow-up Papa God about my love-life. I think even Cupid stops being stupid and have been irritated with my braggin'. But what can I do? Typical drama of another hopeless romantic. I guesso.

2012, a year of enlightenment for me. Iem' in slowly letting go --what is IDEAL and start facing what is REAL-- state and sometimes, I let things flow on its natural current to see what life can offer me if I loosen my grip in some situations like, yes, LOVELIFE. ♥

I am not worrying, and definitely not hurrying Cupid whose, I know, still in search of my the one. I'lllet the coming times surprise me, I love it more that way than to be waiting in vain.

What else? basta, if Love knocks, my door is always open. Dumating siya kung dumating. I will not force myself to like someone I don't like just for the sake of that crazything. It's quite ironic, you say?

#walalungs. I just wanna have s'thing to blog 'cos its been EONS the last time i made an update. I miss my blog so muchooo.

-XO

guilty

Usher sings in my head, u got, u got it bad, if you miss a day without your friend, your whole life's off track. Exactly where I've been three years ago. Just now that I've been able to reflect from the song.

no bitterness and whatnot, just thought I'd share :P

Make-up

I know its been EONS the last time I updated you. But forgive me , for being so busy this past few weeks that I didn't have time to even have a glimpse of you.

I've got my very first job. Its not that the job is toxicating, its just that my body is still adjusting from the changes in my daily routine--which is well, a lazydaisy--into something more complex.

I'll make it up to you in the soonest possible time and when things fall into place.

Love, jak.

CHEERS! to a POSTEROUS year ahead

another year. another home. hello, Posterous.

Still on the verge of figuring out how this works though. HAA!

when it's time to go home, you'll know

[late post]

december 23, 2011

photo credit from google images

There's really no place like Puerto Princesa. Not that I'm telling you this because Iem' from the place, but the reality has proven the fact.


Fresh air, white beaches, clear sand and whatnot: what more to ask for? I consider myself lucky to be born in such a wonderful place. Not everyone was given the privilege not to worry about the flash-floods and other natural calamities that may come. We are "flash-flood and other natural calamities" free town. HAA!


"Come back, come back" syndrome is what commonly experienced by the people that has gone to Puerto Princesa. 'Cos once you came, you will definitely come back. 


I will not say more about PPC. It's not a good choice for me to advertised it. :P


I love puerto princesa. On second thought, WHO DOESN'T? :)

Yo' motha puckers

...one thing I can never go without (set aside the basic necessities), it would be my magic-wands.

When I was kid, Iem' always amused seeing the grown-ups put make-up on their face. I lost count the number of times I try to imitate them using my mom's -and lola's- make-ups ( I used to sneak in their make-up kits alot like a lot lot before to play with )HEE!. And, well, I will not deny the fact that after I used it, it looks like it just got hit by a super-typhoon. SO MESSED UP. LOLOLOLOL

I remember my mom buying me make-ups made from friendly plastics just so I can continue my obsession without harming my-then smooth skin. HA! But It bores me I ended up sneakin' again their Mkits 'til such time that they not hide it from me anymore. LOL

I used to be inlove with eyeshadows. Neon-bright eyeshadows. Imagine my horror when I see my own reflection in the mirror with too much eyeshadows on. HAA! OH, CHILDHOOD!

growing up. I adore women with barely-there make-up. So, my love for  bright-colored eyeshadows slowly faded and replaced by lip stick/gloss/balm-obsession. It easily get on my nerves whenever I feel my lips tightened 'cos of dryness.

Lip Wares are my instant upper when I feel all ghetto. They had just this magical sensation on me that transformed me into a good mood again. It's like a magic wand that can make me revamp into.... something. VOILA!


ENOUGH with my exaggeration. HAA! Below are the "magic-wands" I tried (as far as I can recall) and Iem' psyched to try. Thought I'd share....

Tried:

the strawberry is my favorite. The Pomegranate's color is what I can't resist. 

(1) strawberry & (2) chocolate: my favorite is the chocolate. I used to licked it, back childhood. HAA!

I LOVE THIS. it just cause me allergy after a month of using. i don't know why. I still buy one once in a while. I just stop errtime the moment I felt the skin surrounding my lips started to itch. STUBBORN. 

the minty feeling after is refreshing. good to put before the lipstick.

one great find.

everBelena's lip/chick tint.

ma ma magic wand!!!!

the smell is so good.

looks natural. the way i liked it

a gift from me to mom. I used it after she opened it. HAHAHA

LOVE

moisture PP104

semi-matte PK102

me wearing the PK102

NARS orgasm blush and gloss are my ULTIMATE fave!!!

psyched to try:

venus and mars 

on my wishlist for a long time

Pink has been so last year. This 2012, I want the rockin' red.

hot pink can never go wrong

photos source: google images.