when driving ain't cool

When I was a little girl, I am dreaming to be an independent young lady when I grow up. Growing up, my experiences taught me to be like one but at the same time some forces are pulling me back to my save point. I'm doing what I can do to be the girl of my dreams. I am taking baby steps towards achieving my dreams, from being the party girl to passing the board exam to studying medicine to learn how to drive and to have my own ride.

I rmb during those late 90's afternoon after school, I jump in to my grand father's car to play driver. The engine was off, ofcourse. Imagining what was it like to be really on the road and your hands on the steering wheel. maneuvering.  

Fast forward, a decade after that, I enrolled into a driving school, I learned the basics of driving. That is when I realized that driving isn't just driving, it requires skills and consciousness and and, complete sanity. 

My parents bought me  wheels a week after I learned how to drive to continue what I've learned from the driving school that I was enrolled to. When the car was delivered, I can't get too excited because of the fear that I'm feeling. I guess, most of newbie drivers feels the same way too.

I practiced everyday with the help of our two drivers. Thank God for their patience , or else.... I'll definitely go bonkers.

Everyday practiced helped me to improved my driving skills, but it doesn't take away my fear to be alone in the road full of horning, speeding cars.

I searched for feeds, zen driving, expieriences of other fellow newbie drivers over the intraweb to ease my fears. It helped me calm down a bit.  And, like the Ol' saying goes, " be shopping your inspiration for driving". And, I say, It works for me, though my first experience wasn't as good and easy as it appears to be.

But, after a month of driving, even if I'm itching to drive alone, my fears won't let me. I want to learn to be independent on the road. I want to go to whatever land place I am itching to be. I need to build my road confidence, but my fear won't let me. 

confidence. fear
confidence. on the road. a must.

Xx,

damsel X knight

Can you save a Damsel in Distress? Is there such a thing like that of what we've read in "magic" book pages when we were a little kid? Every girl dreams to be rescued by a Prince in whatever ride in one point of their life. Even the toughest girls, Ohpleasedon'tdeny. 

Too much

A girl with an endless worries. Thinking, planning, worrying and, more worrying. There was never an action. She seems afraid to face tomorrow, maybe traumatized by what happened in the past. Her positivity is draining from her body. Her sense of refuge is disappearing right from her very eyes.

Breathe, more deeply... Hoping she can save her sanity. Thinking about the what if's that can ruin her. She knows, she knows but she can't stop. Worrying makes her feel productive, at the same time it drained her.

"What else can be the option?" She asked. Maybe, the solution is to wait for the right time to come, she thinks. Like, things will fall into place magically when they already have to be and where they should've be in the first place.

Thinking. Thinking.worrying.then thinking. Then worrying. A cycle, only it has holes. Bumpy ride.

X

ver.2013

I should've posted this on the 1st of january, but I'll be posting it noq anyway...

Hey, babies. Let me be yo' momma!!!

what? I am a good girl

I don't know what I am missing out on (movie world) until I watched Burlesque. I am not a fan of musical-ish movies but this one got me. entirely.

Not that I'm not a Christina Aguilera fanatic, I love her songs from way back pop times. I just adore her more in the film. And her songs in the album, it hit like home.

Like so many, this is probably my favorite track in her  album, " I am a good girl", although all the songs are epic beyond words.

This has been playing on my iphone, my laptop and in my head for the past 7 days.



My mood these days can be summed up with the vibe of this video. flirty, shemxy, fun, laidback and carefree.

hello summer,

That is all

X,

Ps: It's embarrassing to say this, But I wanna make my own version of the song! I'm so inLALALAlove with it.... just the song. no choreo. okayyyyyybye

Travelblog

Travelling makes me feel productive seconded to shopping (but of course, nothing beats <3 ). To make my travels more memorable, I came up with the idea to put up a travel blog. Wutt? Yes...

It's been a great help to me reading other travel blogs, it gives me idea on what and what not to try and do. We may experience different experiences in one place that we will go but a tip from a traveller who already been there will not hurt.

Soon!

Silence

Sometimes, words are better left unspoken. Keep it to ourselves just so we won't hurt the others.

Doctor, who?

Something I find inspiring, to keep me going. =)

"Be a Doctor? So you gonna study medicine?" 

"Well, Yes. It is a childhood dream that I wanna turn into reality. It's a profession that fascinates me."

"Are you sure? It will take you five-years or more"..

"I have made my decision, I haven't been so sure in my life than this. I don't want regrets. I'm gonna give it a shot, and besidse... I can only envisioned myself wearing white with steth hanging in my neck, treating patients regardless of how much I'm going to sacrifice for myself."

" uhmmm, I can't argue with you as you appeared to be very sure and confident with your decision. I just wanna remind you and should you keep this in mind that studying medicine and being a doctor is like a rollah-coasta ride. It can make you lowest of lows and highest of highs. It can be speedy at times,  but just enjoy the ride. It can be bumpy, but don't loose your grip".

and then she "sigh!"

GNARLOSH

Up and running. Go check it out, calling all the posh gnarlies!

curve-up!

Something that made me smile this week, just thought I'd share: 

1. From Y-flyer, I got my second mabuhay miles card which gets me a step closer to elite membership card. 25,000 tier miles to go baby. I love travelling, its something that made me feel productive, seconded to shopping. 

2. WIFI. I'm an internet-lover. Though my phone is a cellular data enabled, it just sucks that globe signal is so slow. srzly, what's with the updating-ish all about? 

3. I DYE!!!. Been itching to dye my  hehehehair for almost a year now. I just had all the time now that school's over! yeahba

4. MASSAGE. Relaxing... uhmmmm.

5. BOOKS. not school books, please! Had enough of it this past few months. 

X,

krsyteen

falling down the rabbithole

Realization hits, but its too late. When will I learn, when all else fails? I thought I graduated from the feeling I felt over a year ago. But I'm wrong, really wrong.

My week in photos: lazy n' busy

I almost forgot to upload my week-in-photos entry. So, here's what happened to me last week...

Some self-reminder

Deep inside I'm hoping,
Deep inside I'm longing,
Deep inside I'm praying,
For a miracle to happen.

I've been through the same journey once,
But given another chance, didn't learn my lesson at once,
Forcing myself to play my best game,
But chose to lie in bed instead.

What could be wrong?
What have been wrong?
For sure I know the answers,
I must put it in mind.

This is my last chance,
I should give it a shot.
Not everyone in the world can pursue their dreams,
Mine is in my hands, I should make it happen.


Frustratedtobeadoctor/iwannabeadoctor,
- Krysteen Javier

Him

I'll do my best and let God do the rest.

My week in photos

The sister made this.

I was just eyeing this on the intraweb a couple of days ago. 

Two of the things I am obsessed with: Pigs and Hello kitty

The two most beautiful women in my life, Mommy and baby sis.

Dear Biochem,

When will you going to be nice to me, really?

XO,

tin

I wonder if you can call it a nail-art. haha

Great view from the land that we're eyeing to buy.

Sigh

There are things that beyond our control. It's whether you deal with it and accept the fact or fight from what you believe is right, you'll get hurt but in the end, the sense of satisfaction that will get you through.

Wishlist 2013

Hello, this is part of my growing wishlist (ver.0113)

LATEST UPDATE: The "Pink shoe" got checkoff my wishlist. hehe

goodbye 2012

6 days late, but here is my year-ender post anyway. 

2012 have been a topsy-turvy for me, alot of things happened. Either, to bring smile or tears, both brings me lessons. 

HAPPY: First&freakin' seconded. Got accepted to my first ever work experience. Got accepted to a medical school. Finally live the life of a travel along with my studies, and thats a check off on my bucketlist -My first time to experience Boracay last august 2012 with the cuzzies and got back again last october this time with my medfriends. Had the chanced to ride the flying fish and I promised I won't do it again, its one of the braviest thing i have done just because I'm not warned. My first time in hongkong and my second time to be out of the country with my college homeys, i finally experience the disneyfeeling-. 

SAD: The life of a student once again just so overwhelming. the adjusting phase and all are but stressful. 

EPIC:

THRILLING:

PAINFUL: Missing' the good ol' years that age as the new year is coming.

EXCITING:

EXPLOSIVE MOMENTS:

My week in photos: holidaze ext. (week one)

Goodbye, 2012. thank you

New year with the cuzzies

supposed to be a movie date with my sister. But the cinema were full when we came. 

Lets make memories
My first ever s'bucks planner given by my cousin as a gift. I got mine but I gave it to my sister, too.

Dinnnner date with the daddy before we head back to MNL

nigh-out with my highschool barkada before i head back to MNL tomorrow

Back in MNL. Back to reality

I love pigs (&pigfoods). screen cleaner, WAISOCUTE?

my week in photos: MPhan inspired

I find capturing photos more easy than constructing words. Thanks to Michelle Phan for giving me an idea.