10.24.2011

the 10 year old in me coming to life

breathe in, breathe out.


MEH. What could it be more shocking than knowing that your '10 year-old' crush just got married? I was randomly searching for some 'friends' on facebook when he crossed my mind, though he was I'm thinking about this past few days. Curiosity has gotten into me.


Stating the obvious, He's not on my friends list. I don't have access in his full profile thing but the one that set 'for everyone' was more than enough to put my mind into a denial-questioning state, " OMIGOSSSH, is this true? is this true? but whyyyyyyyy? and whennnn?". Much overrated but it can not denied by my heart beatingsz.


I was at full stop for a minute. My mind can't barely process the new and beyond shocking information. Feels like it was blocked on purpose. HAA!:)~ . 


Just thought I'd share it's nothing serious though. He'd been my eyecandy for a total of 10 years and 8 months now, But the peak of my insanity lasted only for 2 years from the time that I knew him. He was a memory that I can't let go of. A happy thought that I always wanna mind, though we have no any formal introduction made.


The rose-tinted eyes once I had for him is slowly fading as the year counts. I still consider "crush" the right word to describe my feelings towards him 'cos he is the epitome of what Iem looking for a guy. He may have a physical traits like Derek Ramsey, A bank account/s similar to Pacquiao, And a mind close to  Einstein's, but, Wutt most admiring about him are his humbleness, kindness, responsibleness, and the simplicity he lives in despite of all the wealth his family have and still having. They previously owned a school (one of top most engineering school in the Philippines, still gets a share), but when you see them, you'll not imagine they're that WOOAH.


reminiscing..... UCH. sometimes It makes me all ghetto.


It was February 11, 2001 (me: grade 5, he: 3rd yr HS), when I first saw him walking on the corridor with a funchum juice on the left and a hotdog sandwich on his right hand while chit-chatting and laughing with his 2 friends. I was bored then on my sit as my teacher getting a vote on who's pro&anti Erap&Gloria. Iem playing looking sideways just to kill time when unconsciously nailed my ogle on the right and that's the beginning of my under fairy-tale spell escapade. It's not the usual axe-effect scenario, but it had me. =P


I also came to a point when he is the man that I would love to say "I DO, wanna marry you", haha, but what can you expect to a mind of a nine-year old young lady? I was caught off guard to the phantom of happy-endings.


How can I forget that day when it's still vividly vivid in my mind? It was one of the clearest&dearest memory of my childhood days. Oh, how iMiss.


Desperate I sounded, but I almost acted as a spy. HAHAHA. I know some girls would feel me about this whole crush curahzzzyyy thing. I gathered info's of him, I even visited his classroom every after class before going home, just to seek more about him and it was paid-off 'cos I learned that he's clever enough to be a salutatorian of  his batch and stuff. madness.


My legs go all wobbly as I caught a sight. My lips all smiled when he crossed my mind. My greatest distraction in a positive way.  All the stiffed neck I got while He was catching a breath of fresh air at the corridor was nothing compared to the state of euphoria he is putting me to. The butterflies in my stomach all wild up when Iem staring at him. The notebooks filled with his doodled name. There was even a time that I bumped myself into a 'tambutcho' to catch up a glimpse while he's walking on the street. His 'seen-by-public' yawn that supposed to be a turn-off, dazed me. He had been my energizer-bunny when I feel exhausted and about to absent from school. The adrenaline rush it gave me, by simply thinking of him can't beat up by any energy drink invented. His, was all natural and to the n level. =DD


That's just some of the fond mem'riesz I can share. There's more written on my daybook wc was hidden somewhere the dusty boxes in my room. And , I might bored you to sleep when I blabber more about him. HEE!:)~


To sum it up: HE'S A HAPPY IMPRESSION. No regrets of knowing him at all, and even if he's married now, I can only be happy for him, atleast, He already found the one that can make him the happiest man alive. Gone are the days of gay teasing for having no girlfriend since birth.  


Those days that he filled my days with nothing but pure rays of mighty sunshine are priceless. Enough as payment that he married someone else beside me. HAHA. I'm too delusional for words, is this what I get from reading too much romance novels? LOLOLOL


To the girl that got his heart, you're more than lucky to have him. You're both lucky enough to found and have each other. Godbless with the years to come as a married couple. 


mmmmmk.bye now. i had enough! LOLOLJK *sniff sniff
sssshheeesssshhhh, I can't help myself not to cry. a bit. HAA!:) Nothing too serious though, I JUST CAN'T HELPED IT! A cry baby is always a cry baby. 


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so much goodbyes for this month. ENOUGH. Or, can you take it slowly?




PS: boy OH boy,




as the songs goes, 

Jealous of the one who finally found you
Made your sun and your stars collide
La la la la la la la
She's a very very lucky girl
La la la la la la la
when it comes to you....


I'll be forever that jelly lil' girl less the deeper feeling. ;) 

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